freak on a leash
"one of the best titles i've heard ever for a song. that's my song against the music industry. like me feeling like i'm fuckin' a pimp, a prostitute. like i'm paraded around. i'm this freak paraded around but i got corporate america fuckin' making all the money while it's taking a part of me. it's like they stole something from me, they stole my innocence and i'm not calm anymore. i worry constantly."
got the life
“that's a song baggin' on myself. how everything's always handed to me. how i look up to god and don't want this anymore. like i want something more out of life than all this. and i've got everything i really need but i sometimes don't like. i don't know how to explain it. i have to let it sit through the songs more to actually get into what i write. i truly know, really, the meanings of the songs almost. that's what i'm getting out of it right now."
dead bodies everywhere
"that was the song about my parents trying to keep me out of the music business. my father was in it and he knew how it was and i totally understand now that i have a son. i want nathan to be a musician but i him don't want him to go through the hell i went through. that's the same thing my dad was doing. a lot of people can relate to it, because it's like the dad's wanting their songs to be football players and their sons want to be doctors or something. that peer pressure its like trying to make them something they're really not. and the dead bodies thing is like so i did it and all i got out of it was dead bodies everywhere and got all traumatized. thanks a lot dad, mom."
children of the korn
"that's the song that ice cube is on cube came up with the title. i fed off of what he wrote, he was talking about growing up and puberty. dictating what he can do, like how you gonna tell me how to live and who to fuck? and all this stuff. and i took that and in my stuff i was talking about being a kid always known as the fuckin' town faggot. it's funny how things change. that some of these people picked on me and all of a sudden look who's laughing now. also in another of the verse i talked about all these parents fuckin hating me for what i do, saying i'm corrupting their children, but in turn these parents need to step outside of themselves and really listen to what i'm talking about. then i think they can understand that they were kids before. they're just really quick to judge me. all the children of the korn are all our korn fans. all those kids going through that shit and feeling what i feel."
"big black cock! that's what i call a jack and coke. those little glasses they serve in europe and everything. that's what i named it, big black cock. and that's another song about me dealing with the pressures of this album and how i, you know, i'm trying to kill myself, but you know? do i really want to kill myself? things i'm just questioning myself. most of this is self-structured."
"it's a story about this little girl that came into the coroner's office when i was working there and she was fucked by her dad. she was an 11 month old little baby girl. her legs were broken back behind her and he just fucked her like a toy doll and chucked her in the bathroom. it was the most heinous thing i've ever seen in my life and i still have nightmares about it."
all in the family
"fred was there after korn tv and we said, 'let's do a song together, hey, man, let's go back and forth and rip on each other like an old school battle.' i don't know who's idea it was, i can't remember if it was mine or fieldy's or fred's but we came up with the idea and we started writing and we worked on it together. i came up with some bags on myself for fred to say. it was all in good natured fun."
reclaim my place
"this one is about the whole band and about all my life being called a homosexual. and then i became this big rock star in a band and i'm still called a fag even by my own band. so it's like i was fuckin' pissed off at them. it's like erase them all because i'm gonna reclaim my place and say hey, they owe a lot to me for what i did, and i owe a lot to them back. but, it still kinda sucks. i've never ever gotten away from that fag fuckin' title. just because i'm a sensitive kinda guy. kinda feminine it really sucks."
"justin, that was the kid dying terminally with intestinal cancer. his last dying wish was to meet us and it really freaked me out. that threw a whole bunch of new kind of pressures on my head. that's really intense. someone's gonna die and his last thing he wants to do is come hang out with us. so i truly just freaked out. it's like why would you want to meet me? what makes me so special? and in turn i talk about how i admire his strength and his life. i couldn't stare at him because he was so content he was gonna die. no one could look him in the eyes. and i totally admire his strength. i wish i had it."
"'seed.' that's all about the same thing again. i, laying in bed in my hotel room, thinking about do i really need all this stuff? all this pressure on me? because i'm a stressed out freak. it's about nathan, it's about every time that i look into his eyes, i see myself how i used to be, innocent and stress free. i'm kind of jealous of it. it really sucks, i used to be that way. it's like i have to work so hard at this thing in my life. i have to become a stressed out freak. i put food on the table for my child. every time i look in his eyes, i just see myself staring right back at my ass laughing. i was like care free, innocent as a child. it's really weird and i'm really jealous of it."
"that's a love song. it's about women in general, women who hurt me. it's tre's lyrics. he's going on about chicks and my chorus is like i'm so scared to love anyone and really let them in after i got hurt really really bad by a girl. i've let renee in a little bit, to be honest, but i'll never be that in love ever again. that's what i'm saying, if you've loved twice, you're gonna get fucked, 'cause you usually do."
my gift to you
"renee always wanted me to write her a love song and that's why i called it 'my gift to you.' it's my gift to her, you know how i get sick. i always had a fantasy of fucking her and choking her to death. i fantasize about what it would look like me in her body and watching me do it. so it's like a really sick fucked up song. i did it totally like, i love her so much, i want to take her out of this world. it's really strange. she used to leave notes on my pillow like 25 ways she'd like to kill me. she's got this weird death fetish. we're kinda fuckin' freaky. she got it. she's all 'thank you that's kinda fucked up. i was expecting a fuckin' i love you, baby kinda song.' i'm all, 'no, you know me.' i mean i can't do that."